have you ever

Did you ever think you were fat in high school? Only to see yourself now and think, Why did I think I was fat? It happened to me. I even thought I was fat when I was in the Army and prolly in the best shape of my life. I sort of regret feeling that way, and when I think about it, it makes me angry- Yeah, I wasn't the skinniest girl in my class, but I could still shop in the juniors department, and dresses looked ok on me. I started working out again, and working on my cholesterol- and it is helping my work be a little less painful. There is a lot of bending, stooping and lifting in my job. I have been saving money on not eating out,and learning new delicious recipes and earning extra $$ working on my parents yard projects with Joshua. That was my arm and back workout yesterday. I ripped up tree roots, dug holes and planted bamboo starts. I have to workout to keep up my energy for my new schedule up.
I work now Fri, sat and sun, 4p-10p fri, 6a-10p sat & sun. Sat and sun are pretty rough, I don't get to go to my new awesome ward- if I new this building was so cute I would of had our wedding there instead of in monmouth. But working 2 16 hour shifts is very draining, and monday feels like a recovery day. During the week I cook, clean, paint (feels so good to be doing that again), and now force myself to go to the gym. Next term (winter) I might look at going back to school, and take some psych classes. This term doesn't seem feasable. I need my body to be more used to this shift. I also might seek a different shift/house when one is available so I can actually go to church. That would be nice